To feel the very touch
_________of you
_____ _____on my bare skin;
The thought of it kills me because you only make me yearn for you more, to love you more.



It's almost like trust falling, where we'd close each others' eyes and believe in them.

I'm taking this leap of faith.
To believe once more in something that sounded so seemingly similar. I know I'm in this because of you. I shouldn't let any past doubt your words (: I trust you - you're not just another J.

I WANT TO WATCH HP HP HP HP HP :(
And my timetable sucks officially wef next week! :( :(

Shit. I did such a horrible thing today.
I suck.
I must be the worst girlfriend ever.
Fuck.
Sorry
)':
I should have no friends so I won't be mean to ANYone.

And my results are like shit.
I don't get why I'm here.

Teehee, in balloon land!





Here're some interesting (or not so) facts about myself.
ONE. I tried to tickle myself last night. And yes, it failed.
TWO. I brushed my teeth with my eyes closed this morning because I thought it was funny to do it. Nothing happened. Wasn't as funny as I thought it was.
THREE. I'm more full of innuendo than James today. And James is usually the ultimate, so today, I AM CRAZY. And probably thinking in the wrong ways. I think my teacher did a good job in imparting such stuffs to me D:

And yesterday left me broke ): Plus I'm gonna be going to band concert. SO, I think by next month I'll be some ano skinny girl cos I don't have any money to buy food and eat. yAy.

It felt good. It's been a really long time since I've last bared stuffs to anyone, and actually talk about everything that happened. I just want to thank you, because you're awesome, and more importantly, simply because you don't judge. I know I suck, make you wake up early in the morning, with the back of your hair still sticking out. But I doubt I can find someone else whom I feel so comfortable with, so right, I want you to know that.

And as for results, I should have expected them to turn out this way. I don't want to talk about it anymore. F.

OmG Life sucks ):
Dont ask me why, I just feel like it.
Or maybe I have my reason(s),
just that I won't say it/them out.
Or maybe some reasons are such that you are never supposed to say it out.
It parallels times that much as you don't want it to happen, no matter how much you want to say no, you go, "hey, why not (:" ya, and try to smile it away.
I have no idea how to break it to anyone about how I feel.
Okay not anyone maybe I can talk to some people.
But I know there's no cause for worry, dammit.
Life sucks.
Gaaaahhh.
I watched Apocalypto like some time ago.
And I actually liked it.
I have no idea what language they spoke in,
but I thought, "hey it wasn't too bad."
Maybe except the part where it looked too surreal at the end, like no matter how many times the guy is shot he never dies. Ohwells.
Duplicity's a smart movie on the other hand.
I didnt really get it initially cos it kept playing back.
Then at the end was like, woah.
But it just mainly involved a lot of double crossing.
I want to watch The Proposal though.
Or go watch ghosts of girlfriends past (again) and cry like rubbish.
Maybe it'll make me feel happier.
And think that life sucks less.

I'm so worried we'll end up like Joel.
I've been having this same worry since i-d-k when and thinking and there's no way I want anything to end up the same way as it did. But I'm just super afraid that it'll happen and __ run out and ____ occurs. I haven't exactly talked to anyone about it because I'm so afraid just by saying my fear out, talking about it that it WILL come true. I don't believe in myself anymore. I don't have the confidence that I can do it.


I'm so damn freaking worried we'll end up like Joel.